here's a song, for the kid, who aimed so high, and shot, her down.

well a new year, and so much to talk about.

let's start first with the girl. of which, is the only reason for my joy of coming back. i hope to start something that will last forever in our memories. that will astound even the most critical people. i want it to be all for you.

i don't want to come back. to all the confusion. to the complications. i just want to lead a simple life. this life. i don't want to go back to the hatred, and the not knowing. to the stress, and the restricted-ness. i wish i could live like this forever. but i can't. i must get back to the life i have. i must leave this all behind. i guess i love my family alot. once i get back to normality, it's going to be like i never left. and i hate that. i'd much rather wish, i could have this life. i don't want school to start again. in any way. i want to be free of all the burdens that come with it. sometimes i wish, things came easy to me. and i didn't have to struggle so much. it's not fair. it's not fair. i don't want to come back home. i want to stay here, with my family, and just be here all the time. and never leave. i love this life. i have to leave it. i hate it.

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oh, the new year, new year's resolution.. mine? to be braver, to do what i want to do. set out to accomplish those things in which i love. in which i am passionate about. not care as much, aboutt grades. just let it slide.which is going to be hard to do.. very hard to do. i want to treat my siblings nicer, get less mad. i don't know, don't let things bother me as much. not get so sad over certain things. i want to be the best i can be, without compromising who i am. or who i want to be. i want to talk to you. get over my fears. stop being so insecure, and jealous.

basically, i want to grow up, this year. most of which, won't happen. it's going to be a hard, but maybe, profitable year.