we gotta, live like we're dying.

it's really frustrating, to see love like this, when, she doesn't care much about it. it's pretty sad, i must admit. he cares so much for her. it's amazing how she doesn't care. he does everything for her. i really hope she appreciates it.

i think it saddens me, because, well, it's so rare, to find someone like that, who loves you enough to do all that stuff, for someone. it makes me wonder, ya know? people have so much, yet, they don't see anything. they don't see anything. nothing changes. it's so hard to find someone who will love you, and do so much for you.

i think i'm going to start to do that. really, take a count of the people who make my life worth living. really, just start to appreciate. i know i say this a lot, i don't know what i'm going to do about her, but i know, i know, i'm not going to take you guys for granted. i'm going to try my damn best to make sure you guys know, that i love you, and i care about you, deeply. i'm going to stop being so self-centered, and start seeing the world as it is, with the people that i have. with the people who love me, for me. who can forgive me, who can trust me, as much as they do. here's to you guys, i love you guys. and, i truly mean it. i do.

i, wanted to see, something that's different, something you said would change in me.

new post. i'm waiting to see how this is going to turn out. let's keep this a secret for now.

i need to make a change in myself. there are parts of me. which i hate. which i need to change. these things can no longer control me. i refuse to let them. i'm making a change. in myself. for myself, that's all i need. i want to be different.